Moving to a new chapter of my life… Goodbye blog. 
B.I.L. September 17, 2009
The commitment is still burning in our hearts… BASTA IKAW LORD!
Yours truly is the next vice-rector for Batch 17. Thanks Kuya Jess for this privilege.
Doon sa Tambo August 24, 2009
Naniniwala ka ba sa shooting stars?
*Long pause*
“Hindi,” sabi ng katabi ko sa kanan.
At ang sabi ko naman, “Science major ako eh.”
Tumingin ulit ako sa langit. Nagbabakasakaling makakita ulit ng isa pang shooting star. Anim na kasi ang nakita ng katabi ko sa kaliwa, ako isa palang. Hindi naman ako nagwiwish. Gusto ko lang yung feeling na nakakakita ng shooting star. Nakikiuso kumbaga.
Dumapa ako’t, tumingin sa kaliwa at pumikit. Matinding pagod ang nararamdaman ko dahil umakyat kami ng bundok ng mga kaibigan ko. Bukod pa dun, naiwan ang isip ko sa Maynila. Nag-aalala ako sa pamilya ko, ang dahilan ng pag-sakripisyo’t pag-akyat ko ng bundok. Minulat ko ang aking mga mata. Ang katabi ko’y nakadapa rin pala’t nakapikit tulad ko. Nakaharap siya sa akin. Pumikit akong muli at huminga ng malalim. May naiwan din pala ako sa kaniya. Biglang naglaro sa isip ko ang kanta ng Spongecola na Gemini. Pero bago pa ako matuksong hawakan ang kaniyang mukha’t guluhin ang mapayapa niyang estado, humarap ako sa kabila. Nag-aabang pa rin ng shooting stars ang kaibigan ko. Nainggit ako’t tumingin na lang muli sa langit. Nagbabakasakaling matupad ang hiling na balang-araw ito ay mauulit.
I have, I still, and I always will… August 15, 2009
Many people still don’t believe me whenever I say that I’m okay, that I’m fine and that I didn’t cry anymore after that emotional breakdown last week. Yes, I was hurt. Hurt by something that I haven’t completely confirmed yet because I was too scared to ask. Maybe I’m just creating a stupid scenario that will further jeopardize friendships. Or maybe I’m overreacting again. But then I have my reasons… You see, I’ve been tied down with this emotion for several years now and sad to say, I’ve neglected a lot of people because I was so engrossed with the feeling. Was it really the feeling or the person? Until now, that still remains a mystery. But I’m pretty much sure that it was real. It was love. It IS love.
Last week, I deleted every email he sent me ever since we met. Did I feel good after that? No. All I got was a tiny bit of space to breathe in. Deleting all those messages was like giving up a long-time dream. I held on to it for so many years and now I feel like a totally different person without it. I guess this is the reason why my parents never gave me fairy tale books when I was a kid. Fairy tale endings aren’t real. Well, they are for some people but probably not in my case. Now, I have seemed to forget why but I will always remember how. The battle… The hardships… Above all else, how I loved. It’s something that I will never forget and regret.
Ang dami talagang epal sa mundo August 12, 2009
SORRY NAMAN DI AKO MAKA-GET OVER.
ALAM MO KUYA, DI TAYO CLOSE PARA MAGBIGAY KA NG GANYANG REMARK. HINDI MO AKO KILALA. NI HINDI NGA TAYO NAGUUSAP PAG NAGKIKITA TAYO SA MGA OKASYON. KUNG SINO MAN ANG NAGFIFEED SA’YO NG MGA GANYANG IMPORMASYON AT KUNG PINAGUUSAPAN NIYO MAN AKO, BUHAY NIYO NA LANG ANG PAG-USAPAN NIYO OKAY?! AYOKO MADAMAY SA KA-IMMATURE-AN NIYO, PUWEDE BA?!
The Fight is Over by Urbandub August 5, 2009
When the fighting is over
Coz our mouths have just run dry
As our feelings get colder
There’s nothing to hold us now
Gave all this time just to be let down
Can you explain to me
What has become of us?
With words released
We can never take them back
Not even pleading can save us
I know you’ll meet someone better
But would you still think of me?
If she can’t hold you like I did
Would you run back to me?
Yes I know this pain shall pass
Gave all this time still we couldn’t last
Explain to me
What has become of us?
With words released
We can never take them back
For all that we’re worth now
Not even pleading can save us
How did we end this way?
Our promises thrown away
All the years we built, broken up
See it crashing down
I have to say
Though alone in this crazy sea of faces
It’s still your face I wanna know
Explain to me
What has become of us?
With words released
We can never take them back
For all that were worth now
Not even pleading can save us
Can’t save us now
The fighting is over
The fighting is over
The fighting is over
The fighting is over now…
3 steps forward August 3, 2009
I have the answers to my questions. GREAT! At least, alam ko na ngayon ang next move. Finally. Thank you Lord! Thank You!!! :_
Nakakatrauma lang keri? August 2, 2009
I got stood up twice today.
Bebeh and I were supposed to meet yesterday but she cancelled it because of some changes with her plan. So she told me that she would hear mass with me today. However, she texted at around 3am saying that she couldn’t make it because she’s sick. Okay lang so I went with my sister instead.
This afternoon, I went to Araneta to watch the UST vs. DLSU game with Jess, one of my co-trainees who’s from La Salle. I was so excited because it’s my first time to watch a live game this season. During game 1, Ron texted and said we could meet at Gateway. Since I was there already, I said yes. He told me to meet him up at Fullybooked Gateway between 5pm-6pm. The first game went on overtime twice so the main game started late. It was already 5:30pm when the 2nd quarter of the main game ended. And so I left Araneta. While I was walking towards Fullybooked, I received a text message from Ron and he said that he couldn’t meet me anymore. I was dumbfounded. Since I couldn’t go back to Araneta anymore to watch the rest of the game, I decided to go home and tried to keep my composure as much as I can. You see, I’m not the type of person who knows how to handle anger. Whenever I become angry, I just cry. So there I was… Teary-eyed… I just texted Jess to apologize for leaving him there. ALONE.
Palits and I are going out tomorrow night. I hope nothing goes wrong. Baka hindi ko na ma-handle if ever I get stood up again. *sigh*
JELETTE FTW!
UST lost btw.
I know right????
Excess: Habang naglalakad ako papuntang jeepney terminal pauwi ng Crame, kumanta na lang ako sa isip ko ng Your Heart Today. Yun siguro dahilan kung bakit kinanta yun kanina sa misa. Haha!
Grant me compassion that I may be Your heart today…
So true. August 1, 2009
I passed CCT! Yay! [Deo Gratias!] It’s quite sad though that one of us got booted out. 
The PST will start next week. Our schedule will be from 9pm-6am. I hope I’ll be able to adjust myself to our new schedule. *sigh*
Nothing is sweeter than having friends who make you laugh when the world seems crumbling down right in front of you. Salamat sa aking paredudetsong na si Jesser. I feel so loved.
Kung di kawalan, pabayaan. (Vivas & Coz, 2009)
Missing Icy and Jerome so much.
The Perfect Wrong Timing July 28, 2009
I have learned a lot from CCT today. I assessed myself earlier and I’m quite sad because I’m really not that good in organizing my thoughts. (I guess that’s the downside of being a fast thinker.) But after doing a thought organization activity, I was able to deliver the things I wanted to say properly. My partner, Dorothy, gave me constructive criticisms which helped me enhance my skills. There are lots of things that I need to improve but I do hope I would pass the call simulation tomorrow. Wish me luck!
My group, Cafe Puro, is currently leading the score boards. So far, we’ve won all of the games and I’m proud to say that I’ve contributed a lot of points. [More than half of it! YABANG! HAHA!] We played Catch Phrase [Shane and I make a really good tandem!] and Mad Gab. I answered 11 out of the 20 items. Major verbal diarrhea, I’m telling you! But I guess having equally smart groupmates is an advantage as well. Tomorrow’s gonna be a tough one. CALL SIMULATION DAY! OH NOES!!!
Something terrible happened to me earlier. While I was on the bus, I started sweating like crazy even though it was freezing cold inside the vehicle. My heart was palpitating and I could actually feel the blood running through my veins. It’s a good thing that the man seated across me noticed that I wasn’t feeling quite well. So when I got off the bus, he got off as well and he accompanied me until I make it to the other side of EDSA-Santolan. It was only then that I found out that he was supposed to get off the bus earlier than I did because he rode another one heading south. I was too weak to even say thank you and bid goodbye. [May God bless his good soul. ] After that, I rode a jeepney going to Promenade, texted my sister-in-law and asked if she could come and pick me up. I’m very much grateful to have her with me right now. She really takes good care of me.
So you’re probably wondering now why such thing happened to me. I abused the coffee vending machine this morning. I think I refilled my tumbler 4 times. HAHA! Swapang sa kape, ayan tuloy! Plus, I had a flu shot before I left the office. I guess flu shots don’t blend well with caffeine.
My heart is hurting. Literally and figuratively…
